Ever have the feeling that you aren't the person you want to be?  That is what I feel like and have felt like for a long time.  I want to be the person that I know I can be, but have yet to figure out a way to be.

Inside my head there lives a dream that I want to see in the sun
Behind my eyes there lives a me that I've been hiding for much too long
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So, the time has come....the two weeks before finals. It's the worst time for student at Transy. All papers, projects, and tests are lumped together into 10 days of hell on earth. Finals week for me is always a breeze; this year it's just two finals and that's it. However, in the next two weeks I have to do ( Read more... )

Thanksgiving Break is quickly fading away. It's been a crazy, hectic, yet very relaxed time ( Read more... )

The power of friendship and love never stops surprising me.  When I begin to forget, life has a way of showing me so I quickly remember how lucky I truly am.

Example: A comment on my livejournal from yesterday. http://www.livejournal.com/users/e_wells/3918.html?thread=5454#t5454

I know that I have great friends.  Thanks Liz!

SURVEY ( Read more... )

It's a weird place being knowing what you know and feeling what you are feeling. I know things in my head, yet my heart is sadly just out in left field, not able to learn these lessons or "truths." I feel disconnected. I guess that I have felt this way for a long time. yet I see no resolution, no quick fix in sight. So I am left, wondering and ( Read more... )

I need to find strength to make it until Break, the wisdom to write a damn 10 page paper, and the sanity to act normal. Do we think that I can attain these?

So life is better today. Everything is always better after a goodnight's sleep and some time alone. Now I must do homework.

post script: I will never own a rabbit.

So tonight was formal. It was an event that I didn't want to go to, it was an event that I went to against my better judgement. Anyway, I got dressed up, did my hair, etc for basically nothing. I went because I thought it was the thing that a good friend would do. I, however, wasted a night. I feel like the outsider, the freak, and completely ( Read more... )

I am sick of the bitching, complaining,  and otherwise negative attitudes that surround me.  I have had enough.  If you don't have anything nice to say to me or appreciate the time and effort I put in to things, just don't talk to me.   You may not like what I have to say.  For all those who don't particularly like me, you know what....I probably ( Read more... )