Below is a message I just typed up and sent to my mother.  The last week and a half has been fairly depressing, as I have done nothing but watch myself sink into a lethargic, depressive state.  I can see what is happening to me, but it's hard to actually get to changing things.  Anyway, I sent this to my mother in hopes that maybe it can change ( Read more... )

 It's been a while since I've updated because for the most part, everything has been going well.  Lets see if I can do a good, quick breakdown of things ( Read more... )

 In two weeks time Amber's brother is getting married.  I've been invited to come, but it's out in Cincinnati.  I'd like to go, for many reasons.  It's more time I can spend with Amber, time I can spend meeting her family, I can actually meet her brother, I can go to my first wedding, and I can actually get to travel.  Aside from Winthrop and a ( Read more... )

 I received confirmation yesterday that I did not get the job at Sandy Spring Bank.  Very disappointing, it was a very good opportunity and I think banking is probably a strong career choice for me ( Read more... )

The initial "new relationship euphoria" is beginning to fade, or maybe it has already.  This is what determines if the relationship is going to last, how things progress from here.  It's curious to find that I was the one that needed "space" first.  Not that I really needed "space", but we ran out of things to do together (given our extremely ( Read more... )

 So it's been a week and a half since my last entry.  There's a bit of a reason for that.  But first to the most recent experience ( Read more... )

 What to do, what to do ( Read more... )

 I act differently depending on who I'm with, where I am and a variety of other factors.

How do I know which one is the real me?

 I hope that when Chris comes back to Frederick we can acquire a similar relationship to Rayne and Noel in LeastIcoulddo.

 There's something comforting when I go in and talk to an older person about things.  Doctors or counselors, there's just something about what they do that puts me at ease, or in wonder, of what they do.  I went in and talked to a career counselor about what I might be able to do with my life today.  I enjoyed anytime she spoke at length, but all ( Read more... )