It's a tough lesson for me but it's one I need to begin feeling and living.  I need to believe in living for myself.  I currently seem to just be latching on to someone/thing and living for them.  I'm not sure that's a healthy way to go about things.  Maybe I need to see a shrink.  I've always figured that if I latched onto the right person that ( Read more... )

 Biked over to the Like house today.  The hills on Oppossumtown Pike are real serious when you aren't in shape.  My legs were pretty worn just by the time I got over there.  But I was able to talk to Elliot and Mrs. Like for a few ( Read more... )

 Still throwing out resumes, calling some places and searching for something.  I need a job, even if I don't have a lot of motivation to get a job for myself, I still need a job and that point has finally gotten through to me after 5 years ( Read more... )

 I wish I could just sleep at will, until whenever the next activity I'm doing happens.  But my sleep works opposite how I want it.  If I have time and want to sleep, no more than 5 hours of sleep for me!  If I don't have much time and have lots to do, YOU MUST SLEEP 10 HOURS *YAWN*.  Ugh ( Read more... )

Apparently Alex Stick works at Lowe's. My dad said to go ask him for a job. I'll consider it, but not quite yet. I'm getting a bunch of assessment review things from all the resumes I've handed in coming ( Read more... )

 I've been fairly confused over the last month.  About her, and us.  I think my LJ is fairly obvious about that.  A couple days ago I sent her my worries and concerns about us, asking for some clarification on what "us" is and what "us" means to me and her.  She apparently did nothing except sleep and work (despite it being a 9 hour shift with ( Read more... )

 It looks like the heat wave is coming back, oh joy.  My ankles are really hurting so I need to get into biking in hopes that that will be able to help me get in shape while not hurting my ankles ( Read more... )

 Halfway through my drive home last week my dad calls ( Read more... )

 True Blood is such an excellent show.

Jason: "I never really thought I was smart enough to be depressed, but here I am..."

Today looks like it'll be depressing.  Which will at least set me up for a depressing night if that's how things go.

 I'm going to attempt to get at least one application/resume sent out a day until I am employed.  I need to prove to myself, and a certain other person, that I'm willing and capable of obtaining and maintaining employment to provide ( Read more... )