Okay I just finished washing the dishes, I can't believe I had the energy to do it so early in the morning (9:00am). Anyway since today is Memorial day and school is out, I think I'll give Jeremy a call and see if he is home. Hopefully he is home,then again I think it is to early to call anyway he is probably still sleep, I know I would be still ( Read more... )

Okay I just got finished meditating so I am doing finer than I was earlier today which was really boring. I did absolutely nothing today but just set around and think and just explore myself and other people. I would have meditated, but for some strange reason I can only meditate at night (I am weired), so basically I have been seating on my ( Read more... )

Okay I couldn't find the lyrics to that song I was talking about last night, but I had wrote this poem in my sleep and it sound pretty good so check it out ( Read more... )

Goshhhh I want to go somewhere, I am so bored. I think I will right that song I had in my head earlier. Oh speaking of song I have to finish "Papa",but I am not feeling that tonight. I was so mad late last night, because I had wrote this song and forgot how it went =( and lyricly is sounds really good. I am listening to U2 right now, boy how I love ( Read more... )

Okay awhile back I had written up an entry stating that I was changing the way I acted around people. I said that I didn't like my happy go lucky, joy boy character anymore and that I was going to cut it out completely, and that I was going to be serious and more real. Basically I was going to be mean as hell to people and act like a bitch. Well ( Read more... )

Okay I never gave him the poem. When I came to school yesterday or when I was on the bus, I figured out that guys don't give guys poems what the heck was I thinking. Anyway its not like I had talked to him anyway. not really knowing why its just I had nothing to say to him ( Read more... )

I DESERVE IT ( Read more... )

Okay I called him like Twice and he wasn't home. Surprisingly I was not upset as I seem in the last entry (if he wasn't home), but I felt kind of okay about it because I am not really ready to talk to him on a personal level anyway. I espicially felt even more better when I had wrote this beautiful poem about the relationship we have or the ( Read more... )

Okay it is about 10:30, and I am nervous as hell to call this boy. I don't know what I am nervous about,probably what he might think of my feeling and thoughts about him, he'll probably think I am gay........ Let me just call him and stop talking about it. I tried to call Raven but she couldn't talk because she had death in the family and like ( Read more... )

Okay I just got home from church, and all I could think about was what had happen today.Now don't get me wrong I was listening to the Bishops message and I did get something out of it,lol.But still at the same time my mind could not let go of jeremy and I. I guess the reason why I am so pushy or bitchy rather about him and I, is because I guess ( Read more... )