i cant believe i'm still awake.

and now... to write a paper.

today i feel shitty. all i wanted to do was talk to my boyfriend, who i just found out is in san jose at some workshop thing. i think it's cool that he's doing that kind of thing. but i'm hurt that he didn't tell me about it. i like to know what he's up to. i really wish i could talk to him ( Read more... )

well this is the second day of overcast blahness. it was sunny for a little while and i did some gardening, but ugg, this weather makes me sad ( Read more... )

fuck i'm so jealous! fuck, fuck, fuck!

tonight everyone just said "fuck you". figuratively, of course.

but still, this sucks.

when he doesn't call me it kinda makes me crazy. i just sit and wait for something, e-mail, facebook, phone call, text, anything. it's really upsetting that have let another guy get to me like this. i almost miss not caring. but it so amazing when i do hear from him, or see him. shit. what have i gotten myself into. i just want to know how his day ( Read more... )

oh god. i need a hug. i'm stressed and sick and i need him, and he's not here. and david is gone, i have no one to talk to. feeling overwhelmed and alone. he could have come by before he left, he could have said goodmorning. god i need him so much right now. i needed to lay by his side yesterday, but he needed to sleep so i left. he said i would ( Read more... )

some gentleman, can't even help a girl carry her masses of art supplies across the street. bah!

i miss you baby.

at this singular moment in life, all i want is, you.