Quotes from the Movie: "What the Bleep Do We Know ( Read more... )

I hate how extremely complicated life is. And you don’t even realize the times in your life that are going good until you hit a rough spot and then think of how life used to be and how easy you had it. I am really hurting right now over so many things and sometimes it feels impossible to get through all these emotions and tears, and just that pain ( Read more... )

Some people that read this journal off of the link in my AIM profile have told me that they could never have a journal like this and be so open about deeply personal things. But it's funny because I rarely put that many extreme personal thoughts or events in my life in this journal at all. Maybe it seems like I do for some reason, but I make it a ( Read more... )

I drove to the ocean the other day and parked in one of the pullouts on a cliff and watched the waves and the rain through the glass of the car. And it was so beautiful in this really cold and distant way, but that’s the way the beach always is in the rain ( Read more... )

Today I got hired at The Gap. So now I can breathe a sigh of relief and know that I will make money this summer ( Read more... )

None of my friends were out of school yet to celebrate my birthday with me, so I hung out with my mom and sister all day. We went down to Lake Lagunitas in Marin and hiked around it. I hadn’t been there since I was a little girl and I had forgotten how amazingly beautiful it is ( Read more... )

Being home right now feels unsettling and I am feeling that almost dull pain in my heart, or maybe it’s only in the bottom of my stomach, but in any case, it feels all too familiar. And this house and my room feel strange because for the last two years being here I have been with him. And now it’s only me sitting here. And he is no longer a part of ( Read more... )

Sometimes it feels as though the whole world will never work the way that I want to, or maybe it's just the way that I need it to ( Read more... )

Last night I watched The Village, which is one of my all time favorite movies, for the second time and wrote down this quote:

"The world moves for love. It kneels before it, in awe."

Beautiful.

I had a good cry in the hotel room last night. Over so many things. I feel like I have been holding the world in over the past year while I was at college, and as soon as I left everything just came tumbling out. But it felt good ( Read more... )