im feeling unexpectedly dow, dont know why. things just seem not right...the beginning glimmer of being with dan has worn off and im feeling trapped. we got together way quick and im soooo not over paddy. even though i should be. i dont want to start my homework and i wish some people were hanging out tongiht but i dont think they are. so maybe ill ( Read more... )

why was that so hard? i had expected this to be good, i thought i was ok. but instead seeing you hurt me so much. im realizing now that im not as ok with everything as i thought. hearing you talk about her was so weird, especially when she is treating you the way she does. but i should be happy, im supposed to have moved on. i have this great ( Read more... )

so, last night was amazing. i came home from the volleyball game i had to cheer at and walked up to my room. when i opened the door, a ton of balloons came pouring out. i walked inside and the room was filled with ballons and the words HOMECOMING? were spelled out on my bed with rose petals. i was going to throw all my stuff in my chair but when i ( Read more... )

my mother does not understand me. at all. this is not your typical mother daughter thing. we are so utterly different in the understanding of this world its almost inconsevable that we share blood. she has no sense of adventure or spontanity or downright ridiculousness. a man calls our house, sounding rather drunk and demanding to know who this ( Read more... )

god i had such a good night with dan. he is truly my soulmate, my better half, my best friend. i never new it was possible to be so close to someone, or so happy in that closeness. when im around him i just want to jump and yell and kiss and cry all at the same time and all out of extreme happiness. i took him to third place books yesterday and we ( Read more... )

so...yesterday two things happened to me, one very good and one slightly bad ( Read more... )

the game was really fun, we didnt drop any stunts. dan showed up about half way through and was looking very nice in a blue button up shirt and jeans. he watched me cheer and i met him in the stands after the game. we went to bothell landing and chilled on the big steps. he told me stories, i massaged his back, he congradulated me on my psat scores ( Read more... )

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so...i went to the IHS football game against roosevelt. i was accompanied by peter sarah chris valla and neil. i saw dan there, he was playing in the band and carolyn was also there, hanging with jacob. that was awkward cuz i think she still hates me o well. talked with a bunch of ppl i havent seen in forever and generally had a great time. then, ( Read more... )

omg i am totally freaking out. what am i gonna do!!!??? ahhh!!!!