still tears me up any kind of contact god forbid i see her on campus in passing i am gonna be a mess i can feel it already the pain of not being joined in lust not being united in flesh to flesh contact back and forth wishing for one more time knowing i will never be satiated in my one sided craving

I wish it was easier to think with heart and not sex.

I wish my memories weren't consumed by you naked.

I wish I could hear someone else's moans in my mind.

Oh Ex, how you've leashed me.

If I shared a bed with you I would get us a sleep number bed so we'd always sleep soundly and comfortably...

When my grandmother died in June of 2006 my mother and I attended a funeral along with the rest of my mother's siblings (one older sister and four brothers). Paula, my mother's older sister, took control of the ceremony as usual, but no ( Read more... )

I am in York, PA for under 36 hours to eat turkey with my mom and 'aunt' Cliffy. I'm cold! I need to go to bed... it's 2:30am and I'm just doing random crap on the computer. It's been about a month since my last entry when I had just started officially dating Rachael and I'm proud to say that her constant positivity has changed my life... I love ( Read more... )

i am so relaxed right now because zuri is massaging my head so i cannot punctuate this. anyway.... she has been growing on me (not zuri, you sausage!) i am in a relationship again and i feel really good about it! i feel like i know what it takes to make it work or at least try... and i just got a job at whole foods... i'm sooooooooo excited! ive ( Read more... )

I love the fact that fall is approaching. Today I'm back in York, PA (our house, NOT our home). It's a lovely day, a comfortable 75 degrees or so outside, blue sky, light breeze, birds abound. Today the sun is hitting the pond in the backyard nicely! I went out to look at the fish and the frog was hovering at the top of the water ( Read more... )

I arrived at noon on the New York City subway, tired, congested, and made my way to the salon with my 50 pound bag. I had prepared three "straight"-looking outfits in hopes that her mother wouldn't know. Into Cecile's Salon where she was getting her hair all cut off. I was there! I was so proud to be there for a moment of such symbolism and I don't ( Read more... )

So, when I hear this song I'm so sure that I've become the essence of the person Lauryn Hill is singing about. I am "some girls". But I'm not after guys... yeah.

On that note: I love R&B/Soul/Funk. :)

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I have so many goals for this year. This livejournal could, in many ways, be considered obsolete. All my thoughts go into my own personal journal and no one reads this anymore, I don't think ( Read more... )

[I feel like maybe I'm growing too attached too quickly ( Read more... )