I feel as though I am just going through the motions... what is that? That means I am moving through life indifferent, no spice. No making out, no South Side-ing with friends, just going to school, doing work for college applications and taking care of my health. That's it! There has to be more to life. My C-Horse friends don't seem to want to see ( Read more... )

Why do I fall so hard, so fast? I missed her the second after we kissed and I departed. I want someone SO BADLY to hold, to hold me, to respect me. She says that I'm cute, that I'm special. I've never had anyone say that to me before and really make me...believe it ( Read more... )

First day of senior year, just okay to start, then reletively better after I got my schedule fixed and better yet when I figured out another plan of action on my schedule, a plan which will allow me to have lunch and English with my C-horses ( Read more... )

End of summer + Rain = lots of reflection and drabness ( Read more... )

Today I helped clean the entire first floor of my house thanks to a sudden impulse my mom had. Then we bought Chinese food in Squirrel Hill and brought it home. Ate it over Phantom of the Opera on Pay-Per-View.
Rainy days tend to depress the soul. And I think I'm getting an ear infection. WOO!

I just finished making a list of 38 or so items that I would take with me if I packed my belongings and went to stay with some counselor from the GLCC.

I'd never be able to do it, but the point is, I KNOW I could get away with it and never look back if I REALLY wanted.

Awww fuck.

YAY! i get to see a lezzie movie in Square hill tomorrow. WOO! Get to meet Nyco for the first actual time, gonna get some conversation going ( Read more... )

OH MY GOD! WE HAVE A GAY PLUMMER! He's soooo cute! and gay!
I was upstairs finding a recipe on the computer and I heard him come in, he seemed very cheery from one floor away. When he and my mom went to the basement to investigate a problem I returned to the first floor with the recipe and smelled cologne. The cologne of a gay man :) Immediately, I ( Read more... )

I am afraid of being perceived as nieve and meek and dumb. I am not stupid, I'm not slow. I get attatched so damn easily. I find connections to people and I want them to stay, I want the bonds to be honored and expanded upon. I trust easily and move quickly, think quickly, bruise easily, and heal instantaneously. I move too much, I go on too ( Read more... )

Oh my god, I remember the day we sat close and listened to Tracy Chapman on my iPod. I remember walking through Highland Park, through the woods watching cars in the distance moving to their destinations. I remember sitting in Tazza D'oro talking about Yin and Yang and the balances and connections in the ebb and flow of life. I remember the look on ( Read more... )