after everything that happened, all the drama i mean..he was still there to comfort me and tell me that things would be ok. i love him for that. finally, its me who gets to be happy, everything b4 him didnt seem to matter i was trapped in this world full of nothing and the only lover i had to turn to was drugs. its not like that anymore and im glad ( Read more... )

i got so addicted to myspace that i havent updated this for a VERY long time. thats what im here to do now ( Read more... )

...he asked me to kiss him, i almost didnt believe it. he even said "i love u" how was i really supposed to believe that?!?

I ADORE HIM...always have, always will. he'll get his wish on thursday.

U know U love me!

she can no longer hide
her form behind her veil

you are a cocked trigger
smuggled into a house of prayer

the statues arouse
your blood to wine

her essence
cupped in her being
she has made herself
available to you

she needn't steal your heart
if you give it to her

the cops and robbers
of your childhood
neglected to teach you
such simplicity...

...i'd like to call it something more along the lines of: "lovingly observing". since when did i turn into one? i dont like it much, it makes me feel, well, uhhh, desperate. its NOT MY FAULT! its not my fault that sometimes all i wanna do is stare at ur beautiful face or watch u play guitar, or critique your oh so hot body..ITS NOT MY FAULT I TELL ( Read more... )

i wanna scream, i wanna cry, i wanna bang my head against the wall. i wanna do so many things that make me hurt physically to get rid of the real hurt thats inside me, its the worst hurt u can ever feel and i hate it and i wish to no longer experience it..hes shit if he doesnt see it, damn him ( Read more... )

imagine growing up, i mean ur entire life until now knowing and believing one thing, but all of a sudden u learn the truth...after all this time. u'd be shocked, perhaps more than shocked, maybe like wanting to just curl up and sleep forever or just go away. maybe im totally overreacting, but maybe not, i mean this type of shit is the stuff u see ( Read more... )

i felt like screaming all morning, i had my reasons ( Read more... )

i dont do very much, yet my body aches and im very tired. i think im just drained, tired of everything and everyone. ppl dont seem as important anymore since im usually around a lot of them anyway, its hard to always be entertaining everyone. call it anti-social..and u'd be wrong! i need alone time, but then that gets boring too..ehh well ( Read more... )

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