"I was stuck. I was in this place, in between my future and my past, and I wasn’t sure which one I wanted more. But I guess it was only natural, you know? To dream of a summer love from long ago or nights you spent with friends you used to know. These people had long since gone, and part of you wanted them back, and God you hated to admit it. That ( Read more... )

maybe it's not food poisoning; maybe the way my stomach continues to pulse as it is squeezed and distorted is some sick form of karma. maybe i've internalized my guilt and it's coming out in the form of physical pain. maybe it was the dirty pack of sour gummy worms i gobbled down at 2 in the morning after such a strange night. in any case, i'm sick ( Read more... )

Fuck false hope ( Read more... )

things to be grateful for: spring edition

wale/lupe fiasco/will.i.am/B.o.B/j. cole
my new piece (even though i miss my old one)
getting along with everyone
my newfound beerpong skills
"cheers to single bitch3$"
i'm heading off to gainseville in twelve weeks
skipping school but still getting A's
yolos
my prom dress
random text messages from b
and other boys ;)
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Sometimes things have to come back to the surface to heal. These things are going to come up right now, maybe this week, sometime soon, and it's going to hurt. You're going to wonder why the things you thought you were done with are back. They have to come back so they can heal. They have to come back so you can let them go.

things to be thankful for - march edition:

-maintaining straight A's while constantly missing school
-getting into UF
-guy friends who care about my well-being
-nightly hour-long calls from colin
-interventions from matt
-winning third place at deca states with erica
-hugs/calls from brandon
-"shroomin' sloane"
-elia and i have been friends for ( Read more... )

i'm depressed, again.

when people walk away from you, let them walk. don't try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring for you, coming to see you, or staying attached to you. when people can walk away, let them walk. your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

"the more you think about it, the more power you give it. remember what happened but know that you cannot move forward while looking backwards."

finally letting it go. it feels good, putting the past behind. i'm ready to revive my infectious smile :)

"you have the chances, the opportunity for greatness, but your mistake is living in your regrets. realize your greatness. look ahead with nothing but hope."

i haven't fully pulled myself out of my depression, but i swear i'm working on it