i'm waiting to feel my heart break but it just isn't coming. i'm waiting to be swallowed in devastation, refuse to leave my bed, refuse to eat, but instead i feel nothing ( Read more... )

life is so fucking short. we hear it all the time, life is too short, seize the moment, carpe diem, no regrets. our parents and our teachers have always told us, life is short so make the best of it. but it never really resonates within you, until it does. until a girl's mom dies, a girl your age. it could've been you. it could've been my mom, a ( Read more... )

I keep telling myself i'm going to start writing again but i never do. i know it makes me feel better, i know i have a natural knack for it, but i just get so lazy and i guess a bit scared too ( Read more... )

where did i go so horribly wrong?

senior year, i won the most dramatic superlative and cried for days. i didn't understand, i don't start problems intentionally, i try to stay out of conflict. but now it all seems so clear; i am constantly turning my life into a comedy, or tragedy, or both ( Read more... )

things to be thankful for: thanksgiving edition ( Read more... )

i dont like being lied to, or messed with :(

this is why i dont get my hopes up anymore.

I deleted the list, both lists. It felt good, wiping the slate clean. I haven't given myself a break in a long time. Of course I'm not moving forward; I'm sitting right where I was sitting two months ago. Static and unchanging ( Read more... )

To have it halfway is harder than not having it at all - One Tree Hill

things to be thankful for - july edition:

-not being pregnant
-my ability to make new friends
-the springs girls
-gainesville's trees
-keeping my grades up
-the comfort of cooper city
-my boys
-and my boys ;)
-my newfound fashion sense (thanks to caroline)
-being president of my dorm
-brownies 8)
-being a COLLEGE STUDENT!