Sometimes I try to do things and it just doesn't work out the way I wanted ( Read more... )

walking in total darkness. hand in hand. no sight but i could feel you right their next to me, all around me. at one point i felt loved, total love.....it was only for a second and then you were gone. i felt that feeling very slowly drift away.

Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby

I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I can see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy

last night was cool, i went to a party in elmhurst.....apparently it was in honor of recent events, cuz MAD people got up and made a toast . It was pretty funny......"hes a wounded man waiting to be nurtured back to health." I really wasnt feeling it though, i didnt wanna be with anybody, so i bounced and went to my old block. I saw a buncha ( Read more... )

holy shit, i just went into the craziest coughing fit. It was so fucking violent, i hacked up a friggan lung. I was going so hard i almost puked. I felt like steve-0 after doing some wasabi snooters. I told myself that when i see blood thats when i will stop smoking.

I've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots; that my tongue is tied off
My brain's repeating if you've got an impulse, LET IT OUT!
but they never make it past my mouth

I've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots

HRM......lots of thoughts going through my head.......lots of hopes held high....i probably shouldnt but i cant help myself.....

oh yeah...i changed my journal all around, i like it i think its cool

I will bid farewell, sever the ties. is this what i am? is this all thats left ( Read more... )

tonight was pretty cool.......me and frank went to party over by union turnpike. We fucking hooved it all the way there. The fucking morons that threw the shit got two keghs but forgot to get a tap. DAMN HOW THE FUCK DO YOU FORGET TO BRING A TAP TO A FUCKING KEG PARTY ( Read more... )

Im an now happy, im not worrying about anything anymore, im glad this is finally over. I also came to the conclusion that people get HUGE power trips in knowing that they hold all the cards in a relationship.