i remember sitting face-to-face at a diner ( Read more... )

it was a wonderful and unexpected change ( Read more... )

witnessed the sun rise today - it was pink and blue ( Read more... )

i spent my birthday traveling, "working", playing with friends.

i hate to say it, but i'm in love with her, and i always will be. i kissed her in an abandoned building, i kissed her on the beach, or wanted to. she fills me with wonder and her eyes hold everything i love about the world.

i got a taste of the world without you and loved it ( Read more... )

dropped you off a valentine saying i love you then followed him. i wanted more and i couldn't quiet it. i'm ashamed. but my feelings haven't changed for you. you mean more to me than just skin whether we want to believe it or not. i wish i could take it back. all of it..

i broke the ONLY promise i made to you ( Read more... )

it's always fear that drives it. fear of loss, of rejection. it's incredibly selfish, and it's the common reaction of the insecure male. however, the exploits of the female are incredibly selfish as well. so it's a struggle of power. but i don't think a compromise is needed. just reassurance ( Read more... )

i can't, won't do this again ( Read more... )

i started eating right again and my weight started evening out last month. i felt really confident and wasn't practicing any bad habits. then for whatever reason last week, my body started hating me and just STOPPED digesting properly for over a week. now i feel huge, bloated.. about ready to cancel all my modeling gigs i had signed on for. urgh, ( Read more... )