reading this journal is depressing as hell.
i can't believe i ever got so into it.
this journal is from a year ago, and its done.
im going to start a new one.

after doing the math, i've consumed somewhere around 929 calories today. not very proud of that ( Read more... )

haven't posted in forever. haven't had time ( Read more... )

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im having my annaul pre-school break down. im freaking out about everything in my life right now. i am gettin SUPER depressed about the whole not-having-a-car-issue right now. i know that im having PTSS from my accident. god, it was the scariest thing ever ( Read more... )

31 hours. then came the bean and cheese quizidillas and the piece of strawberry cake. god. felt really good about myself and those 31 hours. bad ass. i think im going to like this fasting stuff. i wonder if it did any good at all. knowing my luck, probably not. and since i PORKED out my stomach has been HUGE! i look like im pregnant. its kinda ( Read more... )

horrible. i was HORRIBLE today. it was my moms boyfriends birthday, so she cooked this huge meal of really good food. and i can't forget the strawberry cake! strawberry cake is my fucking favorite thing in the world. so basically i porked out tonight. and my boy came over and ate with us, and then we went and layed on a blanket at the golfcourse. ( Read more... )

well today i got to spend 5 hours looking at anorexic models and people trying out for the kim dawson model search. why did i say i wanted to work at a fucking model search? these girls... oh my god. made me feel like such a fat ass. then im all sad becuase im too short and too fat to ever be a model. PLUS it would help if i was pretty ( Read more... )

awesome i just lost my long ass post. i dont really know if i feel like typing it again, but ill just say the 411 ( Read more... )