Do you fucking understand what its like to grow up wanting something so bad. Something so right, that does yourself, family, friends and the country justice? DO YOU HAVE any clue what its like to work your ass off for that goal? Not just a job, or a calling but a duty that benefits everyone. Do you know how it feels to leave everything behind ( Read more... )

its never hurt so bad before....
back in the summer one of my close friends danny, died in a car accident.
and yesterday, i found out that his brother who is also a friend..died from an ambush in iraq...

normally death never bugs me to a point where i cry, or feel confused.

i think i'm there though.

at least now you're together.
i miss you both.

so i guess i'm staying up here for good.
i like it way better than down there.
ummm..
i'll be going back to visit my family for part of christmas eve and day. and then the rest of the time i'll be up here in the towson area. so if you're up here give me a call.

what else?

oh ....
MERRY CHRISTMAS

F- that happy holidays shit.
MERRY CHRISTMAS

so many changes.
time seems like its winding down.

i need a band so so bad.
im in baltimore
if you know anyone let me know.

hope is what will get us through.
believing is what makes hoping worth while.
praying helps us to believe and in the long run.
they're all the same.

I desparately need a band.

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Starbucks before liquor never been sicker....

geez..i feel sick.

if i could put all of my thoughts to words. things would be great ( Read more... )