i just got a new digital camera and took naked before pictures of myself.  which was really really really tough.  but now i have great motivation to not eat a fucking cookie, all i have to do is remember those pictures ( Read more... )

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I've decided to quit making myself puke and to quit feeding all the sickness I have from Earl ( Read more... )

today i had a soy latte, coffee, two string cheeses, cucumber and mayonnaise, edamame, soup, crackers+cream cheese, and chicken and broccoli casserole ( Read more... )

it's funny how easily i get stressed out

i really really really want to eat something

i just ate a bowl of cereal for no reason

i've been fantasizing about a bagel and some bacon tomorrow for breakfast but i'll probably wake up too late for that, which is cool

i ate some split pea soup and puked it up
then i ate a hot dog and a cadberry egg and puked it up
than i had 2 cookies and some chocolate chips and a diet arizona peach iced tea
so, actually, besides the 2 cookies and chocolate chips today wasn't too bad
depending on how much food i puked up
i'm thinking about just drinking tea tomorrow

yesterday i ate:
two string cheeses
two cadberry eggs
crackers+cream cheese
a chicken salad
some bites of frozen yogurt

then i made myself throw up a bunch

and today i weigh 179.5
goddamnit!!!!!!!
i can't wait to get under fucking 175
so, today i'm not going to eat anything except for a hot dog tonight

today I had ( Read more... )