probably the last time.

but they were good times.

what is knowing and when is it blind?

i'd like to get a free drink, but i'm scared of the clientel.
i'd like to feel natural again, but three's company.
i'd like to play a game or two, but who am i to a tall blonde...

how easily life goes on.
soon i'll be nothing more
than a small part of good-times gone by
and a photograph or two on the wall.
a whole new life awaits me...
and even my eventual return wont be a return
to much that stays the same.

oh hell.

"secret heart what are you made of...what are you so afraid of?"

figured some things out the past few nights; lots of long talks with friends who know how to listen to me.

it's true the stuff we keep the most secret is usually the stuff we're "dying to reveal"

we're all so silly.

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it's been snowing ALL DAY! there's so much snow and it's beautiful.

typhoid immunization today. it's the last one i have to get. woot.

took a mucho-long nap. yum.

we went swimming. well, techinically we just jumped of the diving board. i am the best at "the drill."

now i'm going to go eat...green beans.

well, things have taken an interesting turn. for the better or for the worse i'm not sure yet. i could throw myself into it, but in the grand scheme of things that may not prove to be such a good idea...a lovely, fun, cozy, idea, but not good idea ( Read more... )

two people who never meet.
who grow up in different times; one dies right after the other is born.
two women whose lives parallel each other and are destined to never intersect...except that one will find in the deepest most secret thoughts of the other
her own fears, and passions,
and hope.

strange how we're all so much the same.

geeze. this whole not going to school thing and just working and "hanging out" thing is killing me. it wouldn't be so bad if i had a best friend up here to go bother whenever i wanted...but i don't they're all married or in california. all i really need is a couple dang-close friends that don't get sick of me and i can usually manage anything. but ( Read more... )