For all things posted before now, meaning the like 3 things i have said, I am telling myself to get over all f it. So much has changed most for the bad of course, but life goes on. one day i will look back and miss these days, or at least the good days ( Read more... )

so what have i got now, nearly 5 months have passed since i have updated my life and why not do it now? things are the same cept i have no job and i go to a new school. and the things that bothered me 5 months ago still piss me off now ( Read more... )

each day i, as many others, face the day by asking myself: do i wake up now or continue to sleep? if i wake up right then i am forced to get up and get ready for work. i have to go to a job where the pay is ass and the position is getting me no where in this life. but if i sleep i am able to continue dreaming of the way i wish things were, the ( Read more... )

so on the train yesterday there was this old women she was 72, she was telling me about how she knows how to write short hand(which is a really hard thing to learn) and she was so proud. she told me how she taught all her 10 children how to write that way too, and how at 72 she is in high demand for jobs. She was so proud. so that got me thinking, ( Read more... )

i have been stuck in this state of mind where i am unsure if i am happy, trying to convince myself that i am happy, trying to convince my self that i'm not, or if i am really just still depressed. everything in my life seems to be falling apart and i dont know how it started or what isnt right about my life therefore making it impossible for me to ( Read more... )

So last night was quite the night for me.. some piss ass piece of shit person decided he or she wanted to try and steal my laptop and my cell phone while i was in the next room. thank goodness the idiot dropped my phone and then took off, leaving my laptop on the fire escape. what an ASS. at first i was freaked out, the thought that some strange ( Read more... )

the "loop", you know that thing where everyone else knows what's going on in the world around you and you are just never let in on any of it, apparently does not exist in my world. i am sure it's there because i feel beating the shit out of me but i just wonder around like "what the hell is going on" and everyone else is like well we know ha ha ha ( Read more... )

I hate working I feel that I out of most of the people I know am the only one who really does have to work 2 jobs just to semi-survive(cept now i only have one job which really screws me). This is just ridiculous but a girls got a eat, even if it is only bread and water for the next few weeks ( Read more... )