I am soon to be leaving these four years, these crazy, strange days. I am leaving un attached to anything, with the freedom to do whatever I want, go where I want, become whoever I want. I realized tonight, in the shower of all places, that I want to be attached. I want to have something to come back to, to make me have to make a decision. ( Read more... )

I am a huge fucking idiot....I am a huge fucking idiot...I am a huge fucking idiot

I wait so long, the whole world passes me by a second before I get there

Why i do these things, is why i do everything....

Stuck in between beauty, perfection...

and the world that is, reality.

Fuck me. I am a huge fucking idiot.

Since I haven't posted in about two months I figured hey, maybe I should say something about my life. I finished shooting my final film and em getting ready to edit it to death. It's gonna rock (I hope). School is getting more and more lazy days, even the professors have been becoming more personable. In philosophy (philosophy of religion mind ( Read more... )

So the lesbian party was actually pretty good last night. I did have to pay 5 dollars to get in...why, i don't know. I guess they figured 5 was good to ya know, have the privilege of seeing girls in bras. Cause none of us could do that on our own right. Whatever. The music was great and hanging with my girls was great. Colls and Sarah are the ( Read more... )

Decision has been made ( Read more... )

This entry has no person, or persons to which I am specifically referring. I have decided to make a conclusive commentary of the state of lesbian affairs. A state of the poonion if you will....now joking aside ( Read more... )

So from last nights shindig I have made a choice....time to look for the older AND more mature....both not just one. Being around so many drunk puking people who were judgmental and drama filled just reminded me how much I loathe that behavior...how the only drama I want in my life is on the page I write ( Read more... )

Not updating since november...(many sorries)...i have decided to pick up again on an important note. my break is over and though it was lazy days and pretty uneventful, I spent mucho time with my boys. I love these two to death...never have I laughed as hard as with these two. My gilipoo and geebear will be missed. I wish I would have gotten ( Read more... )

So we have finished shooting our final film. Now its time for editing madness in order to bring this masterpiece to its fruition. I have faith in it all. I am going home for thankgiving this tuesday, a nice break and a happy time cause I'll see my boys...i misseth them horribly. And then before I know it, this semester will be caput and my ( Read more... )

I hate not being able to fight ( Read more... )