I have had a startling realisation this morning. Misery suites me. Or my acting anyway. I simply can not act when I’m happy.

Since Chip finished with me my acting has improved ten fold. And I suddenly realised how far it had slipped while I was with him. And now I am furious with myself because I didn’t try in my National Youth Theatre audition at ( Read more... )

 And my full proof plan just got blown to fucking bits. Oh god what am I going to do?......I'm shaking right now.....bugger.

I'm distraught. I'm numb. I don't know how I feel. I don't think I feel anything. I think I'm in shock. I don't know what to do. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I can't believe he's done this. I can't believe he dumped me. And on Valentines Day. I love him so much. And now I've lost him.

I lost the single best thing that has ever happened to ( Read more... )

I've been listening to The Dresden Dolls album "Yes, Virginia." alot lately. And I realised how well the song "Delilah" discribed me from march till christmas (Christmas being December and when I met Chip and had everything suddenly turn upside down because there was no one but him).

"Delilah"

There's no end to the love you can give
When you change ( Read more... )

 Okay, at 2 o'clock tomorrow I will be having my first proper driving lesson. All I can say is, WHOOP FUCKING WHOOP! I am stupidly excited!!!

Okay I know I’m being stupid and girly but I’ve been sitting here in nothing but that stupid coat he left me for the past hour and now I’m crying because I miss him. Oh dear god how am I ever going to cope with this long distance thing?!

 
Happy New Year everyone!

I have had possibly some of the best few days recently.

New Years Eve: Chip came down and it was lovely to see him. Then we went out into Carmarthen with Karyss and met up with others and it was great. I got to see Milo. I am so chuffed about that. So, so chuffed! But yes, so we did drinking, we moved pubs a few times and ( Read more... )

 It's official. As of last night, I have a boyfriend. And he is so pretty! Pic?


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I just fell over my bed. *blinks* Why am I so retarded? It’s not like it’s a small object, easily missed…it’s a double bed!! Stupid Dee.

I have had a brilliant day. I went for a ride this morning on my currently psychotic mare (I say currently because she’s normally quite laid back) who almost killed me by backing out into a bus. So that wasn’t fun ( Read more... )

 I might have a boyfriend............I'm just not entierly sure...............