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Why did he have to Die?
I can' believe it.. my friend's dad is really dead. He was like my second father.. seeing him laying on his bedroom floor... his wife sobbing.. his son holding his white hand... it made it real. I lost my own father nine years ago this February 12th... now I have to be there for my friend, my sister. I am so worried... but I will be strong for them ( Read more... ) -
...so..tired...need...sleep...
...and again I ask: WHY AM I STILL AWAKE? My insomnia suddenly got worse at the beginning of last week.. and it apparently still has me in its slimly little grip. I noted that with the shift in my insomnia, my eating habits changed.. as in I suddenly don't feel like eating anything.. I am just thirsty like crazy ( Read more... ) -
Waiting for the Universe
I have to say that life is better, not a lot.. but better. Things felt like they were moving slow, I was putting in so much effort to promote change and mobility within my life circumstance, and nothing was budging. Within the past few days, things have been slowly falling into place. It is going to take A LOT of work, and a lot of sturggle and ( Read more... ) -
Dreams are a Wish Your Heart Makes
I dreamt that I was back in Alaska last night. I awoke to a bright sunrise filled with intense golden light. There were curtains billowing in a light early summer breeze, and I could hear the sounds of life downstairs: Dishes clacking, coffee perking, people talking, water running. I was almost in shock, I thought: "Yes! I am finally back! I made ( Read more... ) -
Snowy Days, Lonely Nights
Snow has been falling pretty much constantly for the past few days here, and my bus route out of the area has been suspended.. thus I am officially trapped unless I want to hoof it uphill in snow for two miles or so. This actually may occur on Christmas Eve if I want to go to the fams for the holidays.. I love snow.. it is so beautiful, but when it ( Read more... ) -
HELLS YES
OMG! HANGRY AND ANGRY ARE COMING TO SAKURA CON!!!!
I WILL GET TO SEE YOSHIZAWA HITOMI (the hottest Japanese woman alive) LIVE!!! I MIGHT GET TO SPEAK TO HER!!!! AHHH!!!!
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I am the Little Choo Choo the Could
I am once again back at home. I spent a good needed holidayish time with family up north, and have come back feeling.. not refreshed per say.. but at least still standing on my own two feet.
Life has been quite hard for me lately, in ways which not everyone knows about, but I have been trudging along, and have had support of those in the know which ( Read more... ) -
運命、出会い、別れ。。。
人生の中で出会いと別れがいっぱい入ってる。最近自分の人生の中の出会いと別れ時と人について考えてた。友達、家族、憧れた人々、同僚、初恋の人々、まだ会っていない人々の事までよく考えてた。
どうやって誰かが大事な存在になれるのかな？どうしてその人がただの見知らぬ人から一番大事な人になれるなのかな？時々一瞬だけで繋がりが急に変われる。それなのに、別れるがあるはず。それは突然な事。そう思うと、心が痛む。自分は、会った人の事何もかも大事に思ってる。別れても、いつもその人々の事について思い出したり、懐かしく笑ったりしてる。
悲しくて、苦しい時も、切ない時も、寂しかった時も、何もかもちゃんと覚えてる。出会いって、人間の人生に対する創造や気持ちまで変われると思う。一人の人間が、大きい影響がある。
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For Your Information
A few things:
I have insomnia
I need to cease the bi-polar posting on my lj (as not to scare people)
I need to eat (as in like, more than once a day)
I need to learn when to shut my mouth
I have to sort my feelings
I am an internet whore
Ok.
Now that these are out of the way. any readers will understand any random entires from here on out. -
Returning
Things are progressing slow but steadily everyday. I am still shaken up by the fact that I have stepped out of the so called box, the pathway I was so set on to make this choice. The choice to alter my life and just sort of.. how to describe it? Just to run off to do my own thing and learn through experience as opposed to within the walls of a ( Read more... )