nerves & anxiety..
- i hate this crap -

i just want to be a normal god-damn college student. i want to work up at school, a stupid job, like at the rac. i want to live on campus and not have to worry about commuting and working and pleasing bosses. god. i need something else.

the holidays are going to be tough this year. thanksgiving is at uncle stus..if you can even call it that anymore.. grandmas gone. i cant even appreciate my song. everyone in my house is extra irritable because they don't get off their asses and work..so there's no money. i sometimes just wish i could get as far away from my family as possible. ( Read more... )

i feel very alone and sad and kinda like dying.

broken phone.
broken heart.
broken life.

You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfilment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realise the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and ( Read more... )

http://www.a1b2c3.com/suilodge/metfor1.htm <- this made me laugh

so i just got back from lauren's birthday bash. it was kind of fun. i just hate drinking, and people who are drinking, and the dumb way they act, and then i hate the feeling of how i want to punch them in the throat for acting so dumb. i hate how right now i keep having to go back and fix all of my dumb spelling errors because i had a drink and i ( Read more... )

happy birthday uncle stu. miss you.
( quizzzzz )

so, it's my birthday. i have a fever that keeps jumping from 100-104, a boyfriend who won't talk to me on the phone anymore, and parents who aren't being caring like parents should be. at least all of my friends said happy birthday via phone or internet. i love my friends. i'm going back to sleep. so much for being better by my birthday.