Oh gosh I know how you feel in some way. I can't believe your mom would say that to you.My mom has the same issues with her body image (my grandmother was a weight nazi when she was growing up).
I suffer from bulimia and it's really hard. I know everytime we try to fight it we get a little bit stronger.I haven't found a cure. But I'm a guy, so people don't take me serious when I open up to them about it. It's like your screaming for help but everything is so by the book, and I hate it.
I'm 21 now, I've had bulimia for the past 6 years now, my BMI is around 30, in the past years it's fluctuated between 25 and 35. Within these years I changed between different extremes. The only timed I'd feel ok about my eating where when I was heavily restricting between 400-900 calories a day. I would still go to university but I'd feel very ill and low and very depressed. I'd still purge, too, just not as much. I don't think there's been more than one or two weeks in the past years when I managed not to throw up. In the really bad timed I'd binge and purge up to five times a day and my body hated it, my low point was falling asleep at university in a course because I was so strained from purging.
I come from Berlin but right now I'm living in Copenhagen until the end of January. I had big plans for this exchange semester, mainly being awesome at university (I had courses that sounded brilliant!), losing weight, learning Danish. I've managed none of these. I feel like a huge loser. I can relate so much. This will be my life in
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Tak, jeg snakker allerede Norsk! Men Dansk er.... pfff.... seriously, how the hell should I pronounce this shit?!? I am scared that i have perverted my Norwegian though.
Where do you live?
No, you did a very good job at commenting. Thank you a lot. :)
Haha, da er det ikke langt igjen! It's difficult, isn't it? But if you're german (a gues since you said you're from Berlin) I suppose it's not impossible.
Oh, Oslo, how wonderful. I've never been there. I've only been in Trondheim...
Yes, I'm German. I've studied Norwegian for 3 semesters but Danish is.... *sigh*. I mean, I can understand most of it and I can read just fine but speaking is a completely different thing.
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I suffer from bulimia and it's really hard. I know everytime we try to fight it we get a little bit stronger.I haven't found a cure. But I'm a guy, so people don't take me serious when I open up to them about it. It's like your screaming for help but everything is so by the book, and I hate it.
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I think when you're a guy, or when you're not the weight people perceive to be "eating disordered" it's really difficult to be taken seriously.
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Within these years I changed between different extremes. The only timed I'd feel ok about my eating where when I was heavily restricting between 400-900 calories a day. I would still go to university but I'd feel very ill and low and very depressed. I'd still purge, too, just not as much. I don't think there's been more than one or two weeks in the past years when I managed not to throw up. In the really bad timed I'd binge and purge up to five times a day and my body hated it, my low point was falling asleep at university in a course because I was so strained from purging.
I come from Berlin but right now I'm living in Copenhagen until the end of January.
I had big plans for this exchange semester, mainly being awesome at university (I had courses that sounded brilliant!), losing weight, learning Danish.
I've managed none of these. I feel like a huge loser. I can relate so much. This will be my life in ( ... )
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Where do you live?
No, you did a very good job at commenting. Thank you a lot. :)
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I live in Oslo.
I try.
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Yes, I'm German. I've studied Norwegian for 3 semesters but Danish is.... *sigh*. I mean, I can understand most of it and I can read just fine but speaking is a completely different thing.
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