I don't know if I was subconscious or not, but when I was "sleeping" last night I felt like I had no future and I had no past. It was in this in-between. It was a really reallllly strange feeling. And even more strange that I remembered it if I really was in dream land ( Read more... )

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im so goddamn tired.
and weddings suck.
and i have been feeling quite emotional the past few days.
i also haven't been this broke since my early 20s.
the recession has finally effected my life.

i guess with my pictures. I tend to post images that I think other people will like. Not what I like ( Read more... )

this year.
im gonna make myself a bigger, better, BADDER EDAKISS!

ohhhh I am getting that pain in my chest again.
I haven't felt that in years.
Anxiety, oy.

I let a huge "sigh" of "semi-relief" this morning.
now let's just not forget that I am here for myself above all else.
must not neglect or forget that.

now, I must go shit as the coffee I drank this morning is ready for business.

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haven't forgotten.
still can't forget.

man, last month was intense.
life lesson # bajillion, learned.
CHECK.

anxious for 2011 to start.
i need to start making some moves, making some plans.
i'm only getting older.

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