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today was rad. this week is shaping up to be that way. fun times were had downtown with carly crisis, then mike and jess. I want atlas again asap. i miss the ex-wife though. i wish she could have come and played too :(

the last week, except for one thing has blown hard.
my father died thursday.
i have nothing important to say to anyone.
i dont really know how to deal with this.

i made my self food tonight, it was good

if i didnt have the greatest friends in the world, there would be NO way i could handle this. i had the best conversation with krista from canada, i'm so glad she is happy and having a good time with dave, i talked to him for a bit too, he seems crazy and fun, and i think if me from back in the day were to hangout with him lots of trouble would ( Read more... )

so i went to say goodbye today.goodbye dad.i love you.

i really fucking wish everyine would stop giving me shit about this, what the fuck am i supposed to say to someone about to die? i dont want to see him dying in a hospital bed. i dont want to hear words i should have heard years ago. i dont want to tell someone how i felt when they never let me in the first place ( Read more... )

ps. krista have a safe trip and bring me back something cool and canadian ( Read more... )

so i get home at four a.m. to find out that my father has had another bad heart attack in the hospital and is now on life support. I guess my reaction wasnt good enough because mt sister and non-sisters are all pissed off at me. im sorry that i am ready for the inevitable and you aren't. i just saw it coming. how am i supposed to react to this? ( Read more... )

i cant wait til i move out of this shit hole town. i makes me sick to my stomach thinking about all these fake people here,i hate it hate it hate it. and i CANNOT wait until the next fucking trend so 80% of these fucks can move on. my fucking love is a trend, i fucking hate it ( Read more... )