holy cow, last time i logged in here was a year ago.

Sometimes I wonder about why I don't need actual events and experiences to make life worthwhile. It always seems like my mind is content with imagination and just thinking about something happening. For example, I was going to meet up with this girl from LJ, but you know, we ended up not meeting up. To me, the normal response should be ( Read more... )

Sometimes it is very difficult to understand the thoughts that go through my head. I wonder if these thoughts are real or genuine. Most of the time, I am depressed. This poses a problem because it's much better to not speak of it, because if it is brought up, people are naturally helpful and curious. Would it be possible that after years and years ( Read more... )

http://www.cnn.com/2006/TECH/science/03/05/bonobo.disappearing.ap/index.html

The animals are known for greeting rival groups with genital handshakes and sensual body rubs. Bonobo spats are swiftly settled -- often with a French kiss and a ( Read more... )

Just watched Tsotsi. It was really good, I can see why it was nominated for best foreign film. This year I'm actually excited to watch the Oscars for some reason; perhaps it's because most of the movies this year has been good. Nearly all the best picture nominees were really great films ( Read more... )

Sometimes I just don't know about life. The last two years here in the city, I just don't know what I've actually done here. My friends have thirving in their professional lives, while my own has rotted by the wayside. How does one figure out whether it is the product of the environment, or the product of the self? If it is the product of the ( Read more... )

Work is going alright, except my main problem is everyday that I sit there, my mind just wanders off. The subject is mostly about sex. Perhaps all my years of pent up sexual frustration aren't that good for me. My friend from back home would IM me, and I would be there wondering what it's like to go down on her, and then have her go down on me. See ( Read more... )

The problem with life is that most of the time, the life doesn't match the dream. Most of the time when I envision what my life would be like in the future, I can easily see myself handling more responsibilities, being more successful. Strangely enough, it is often difficult to imagine myself being happy and content with life; I never see myself ( Read more... )

They executed Tookie Williams yesterday. Some people were trying to get him off death row, and his story had received a good amount of press. Really though, I'm glad they went through with it. Here was a guy who killed four people with a shotgun, bragged about it, and was also the person who started the crips gang. He sat in jail, refused to ( Read more... )

Infatuations are dumb. LJ infatuations are worse. They are even worse when the girl I'm infatuated with is fucking a guy ten years old than me... honestly, why do I do this to myself? Lame-o. My life needs to get better.