This is really so very stupid and pathetic of me but I am actually terrified ( Read more... )

Coming on here has made me feel so bad. It seems like everyone's had a really bad few days and I haven't been around for anybody. I'm so sorry. I hope you're all doing better now ( Read more... )

Seems like I've hurt a few too many people recently. And I'm more sorry than you could ever understand. To hear from you Kay would be so good right now. I sent you an email, not much I know but I wanted to explain to you. I'm sorry and I miss you ( Read more... )

I am such a fuck-up I may die ( Read more... )

Monday went to a We Are Scientists instore. It was amzing. They didn't have space for a drumkit so they did an acoustic session and WOW. Keith's voice is amazing and he is the damn sexiest man to ever live. Me and Aaron have an agreement that, should the opportunity arise, we can both get it on with him. Then I bought the album (which is so good) ( Read more... )

If you don't really want to know about my sex life, don't read on. It won't get too graphic though, promise ( Read more... )

OMG. Haven't updated in close to a century. So much has happened, much of which I probably don't remember. Went to see The Cloud Room, We Are Scientists (absolute Gods)and Editors on Monday. It was the best night ever, me and Jude got so drunk and went to the aftershow party. I tried to fight a 34 year old and told him I would "fucking take you ( Read more... )

I think Aaron is made of magic. Literally 2 minutes after I made yesterday's he had me sitting here laughing my head off and feeling genuinely more cheerful. He didn't even do anything in particular, just carried on being himself. Although tensions were still clear this morning when he said he was going to come to Editors on Monday to "protect me ( Read more... )

I will just end up breaking his heart because I am so cruel ( Read more... )

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I don't mean to moan but I am just so stupid. Why the fuck do I do the things I do? WHAT IS SO WRONG WITH ME. I am actually so out of control when it comes to my feelings. One minute I think I really do love Aaron. The next I don't care he exists and would happily cheat on him. I have to hurt him to make him hurt me back. It's ( Read more... )