Feeling nasty, but I am going out with my friend Beth today. Fun times! We are going to her house to make jewelry. Mind you I have never made anything but simple beads on string before, but whatever. Maybe I can make new earrings for myself. That would be a good thing. Just hanging out with Beth will be therapeutic enough. Who cares about the bead- ( Read more... )

Saw a new urologist today. He did an ultrasound and found at least one kidney stone in my left kidney. In for a God awful test on Monday where they expect me to wet myself. Then on Tuesday I have a Ct scan to find more kidney stones. The test on Monday is to see how weak my bladder is. I'm pretty nervous. But at least this guy is getting things ( Read more... )

The Voices ( Read more... )

I'm 22 years old suffering with Schizoaffective Disorder with Bipolar Subtype. Hearing voices is enough to drive one crazy. Praise God I don't have visual hallucinations to accompany the auditory ones. But trying to explain what it is like to hear voices is almost as hard as trying to describe colors to a blind man. It is nearly impossible. No one ( Read more... )

I'm living in Texas now, but where to next? Not that I want to move...but with one of my roomies losing his job and all we may e forced to move, and I don't know whether I will follow, or if God wants me to go back wit my family. There are advantages and disadvantages to both. Here, I am missing my niece growing up. I missed her first steps and ( Read more... )

Warning: I am VENTING ( Read more... )

That cliche that life is like a roller coaster ride has never been more true than right now for me. Ok, so maybe it has, but I can't remember a time right now.I have gone through so many emotions in the last 24 hours it isn;t even funny. I have been happy, sad, angry, bitter, giggly, bored, excited, nervous, and so many other emotions. Trying to ( Read more... )

Hello! Well, so my life is taking some more random turns, and leading me places where I don't know what I am doing, but I know that God is right beside me. I went on a walk the other night (finally I start listening to doctors), and while I was walking I had been singing worship songs, and all of a sudden I just felt the need to pray and cry out to ( Read more... )

Hello! so, can I admit that my life is so utterly confusing, and that I have no clue right now which way is up or down? Or does that make me seem weak? Oh, who cares, I am weak!! My life is going a million miles an hour, and I need to stop and take a breather. Hehe...to bad, because here come classes, starting tomorrow. Wow, it has been a long itme ( Read more... )

Hello! Well, I am back from Ohio. It was an amazing time. I almost wish it could have lasted forever. So much happened. So me and Dave decided to be friends. Though I really don't like it, I know it is the best thing we can do. We still talk a lot. My dad is doing a lot better. He got out of the hospital on Friday. He had pneumonia (some weird type ( Read more... )