to be or not to be? a singer? my cuzin has this crazy idea that b/c i can sing good( not really, its cuzins opinion) .. that i should be a singer. but i think its crazy but now that im thinking about it i did write over 30 songs in the past 2 years. but still its stupid i mean me? i would never be a singer i mean just b/c its me.

today is July 4th and i didnt even spend it with my family. in stead of going to the Ammans house with them i decided to not go. mom kept calling to ask me if i wanted to come cand if i was ok. i said i was fine and that i didnt need to go. but then when she called a last time she said she felt bad to leave me there all alone all day. i think in my ( Read more... )

its 4:17 am and i feel scared, and i feel like im seriously gonna die but i no i won't. mom says i am having an anxiety attack, because i keep thinking about it, its becomming alil hard to breathe and i cant sleep. i have been up all night watching tv, downstairs in the family room. its even becomming hard to swallow. when i turn on the lights in ( Read more... )

i feel like i am weak, not strong. i feel like i am stupid, not smart. i feel like god hates me, not loves me, i feel like i should remove my self from my own pictureif u kno what i mean), because of what i have done. i need to punish myself for what i have caused, i feel like everyone wants me gone, out of their life, out of this world into ( Read more... )

kelly i no u are going to read this sooner or later and i wanted to tell u how sry i am. I dont no y i did it but i want u to no that u are my best friend and i cant beleive i did that will kept telling me that pple make mistakes but not like that. in somewhat sort of a way i did cut my self i kept scratching my arm until it bled a little but ( Read more... )

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what is joe's problem? yesterday i even called his house and told his mother to have him go online when he gets home from the park but did he go?NO!! of course not. i think hes really avioding me. i dont no y? its getting really annoying b/c i bet hes not comming online just b/c he doesnt want to talk to me so next time i wont say hi he has to say ( Read more... )

Last night joe told me he liked me! but he told me he doesnt no if he likes me just as a friend or more. i mean every girl hopes that some one likes them but in my case Kelly likes him alot and i dont no what to do if he asks me out. i mean there is a very slim chance that he will but there is an even more chance he wont. She's liked him forst and ( Read more... )

today was the last day of school! Even though i didnt have to go i did anyway so i could see all my friends! It was actually not that bad barley anyone showed up to school but thats ok. I also SKIPPED last period! It was so much fun!! I never skipped any classes this year. I went to spanish class with Kelly and watched Blues Clues! How fun not!! ( Read more... )

yesterday was saturday Kelly and I forgot to meet Amber and Liz at the movies at 12:30 but then again we did wake up at 11:00. Anyway we decided to meet them at 2:00 by that time Liz and Amber had already walked around for 2 hrs. But when we got there we had another hour to kill. So Kelly, Liz and I went for pizza; Amber was really tired so she ( Read more... )