The more days that I experience, the harder it is to believe that I'll make it through another.

I have so many things to do, but all of these awful things just keep rushing into my head. Please be PMS ( Read more... )

I'm missing something vital. What the hell is it ( Read more... )

My heart is aching so much. The dream was so right- I can't do anything correctly. I'm such a trainwreck of  a person, even my boyfriend is on the verge of dealing, I know it. I never feel like I'm good enough for anybody, and I always feel bad for getting irritated with someone that I care about, even if it's for good cause. God, I need something ( Read more... )

I'm anxious and have no outlet. No friends. No one to share my ideas or my wishes or my love. I need a cat really bad. Friday night and I'm home alone and the only one I care about, the only one who's company I enjoy that isn't a feline, is out exploring and living.. I've been alone all day. I really just hope that this blows over. PMS. Please. I ( Read more... )

Dependency, I know you all too well. A few amazing days cut down by a day of lonely shit. The thunder rumbles the window pane behind me and all I want is to be held by him. A huge test tomorrow- I can't focus. And he... what's going to happen to us? He tells me about all the things I need to do for the future and all the things he wants, but he ( Read more... )

I don't want to stop wanting him, but I want to stop aching. Tyler is everything to me, maybe a little too much. This is actually the first time in a while that I've felt this way, and I'm not sure what triggered it. Perhaps it was all the lovey talk that was actually initiated by him for a change, and all the "I want to see you so bad, must see ( Read more... )

what do i do if i know what i should do but something's tugging? just tugging as hard as it can? i can't ignore it. i can't ignore any of it. gone gone gone please go. 

Need to severely edit this. I'm never logical when I do these things.

Scaffold piercing. ~$50
Butch in March. ~$15
Jersey? :D ~$440
Jeans. ~$20
Everything else ~infinite.

I'm feeling optimistic... about nothing but myself. I'm finally getting help, getting shit straight, losing the weight, getting the fuck out of here. But at the same time, I can't find a job, I can't finish this paper, I can't sleep right without drinking (even if I don't feel a thing ( Read more... )