to clarify

[efface]

i hear so many people talk about eating disorders and people who have them, i just feel the need to talk about it from my point of view.

what do i hear? how ungrateful we are that we can afford food but choose not to eat it. how we should just "eat a hamburger". how we're all a product of society's vision of perfection

Comments

[nextstopparis]

good for you for opening up about such a sensitive topic. I am glad to hear you're recovering.. <3 I was actually talking about this yesterday with a friend who's struggling with EDs. about how people can be so insensitive, so patronizing because they don't understand. they can't relate, so instead of admitting this, they try to simplify the disease to bring it to their level.. which is just so incredibly selfish and arrogant.. I don't have an ED, but I suffer from social anxiety disorder and have been exposed to the same ignorant mentality that those of us with psychological disorders can just "snap out of it".. that we CHOOSE to suffer, if we just tried to do ___ or ___ it would go away. I'm sure you've been exposed to people who have said things like "oh, I didn't eat for two days once so I know how it is".. I get a lot of "I used to be shy, but I got over it" as if it's at all the same thing and Im weak for not 'getting over it' too. it's awful the kinds of things people say when they don't understand.

[efface]

exactly. if you haven't been there, there's no way to comprehend what's going on. i hate people who think they have all the answers based on uneducated assumptions.

[nextstopparis]

<3
people are bastards. I don't know how else to explain it!

Re: You are good.

[efface]

it's a hard road, and you seemed to have had it a lot worse than i did. i'm really glad that you were able to start gaining control again with yourself. that's very strong of you. here's hoping we both stay in control and continue to be strong. thank you for your comment. <3

[paint_water]

i can relate to this entry so much, thank you for posting this.

[efface]

you're welcome. <3

[minveg]

I'm sorry I didn't see this post sooner, I'm not sure how I missed this

[efface]

wait a minute. i never, ever compromised my animal rights beliefs. i never handed out coupons for meat products, and i never would. same with fur, leather, animal testing, or anything else AR-related. i handed out blockbuster coupons for free video game rentals, etc. granted, BB is a big corporation, but it has nothing to do with my AR beliefs

D'oh!

[minveg]

i never handed out coupons for meat products, and i never would. same with fur, leather, animal testing, or anything else AR-related.

Actually, I apologize for that... I completely read that post wrong. You were handing out the things at some barbeque (or something like that?) and not for some barbeque. So I totally read that wrong (and yeah, I did read it that way the first time around! Yipe!).

modeling, as of right now, is something i do on the side to (as disgusting as this may sound) kind of feed my own vanity.

I didn't know that, I thought of it more as a stepping stone to something larger, since I always thought your goal was to be an actress or something more along those lines.

Re: D'oh!

[efface]

it was sort of a stepping stone, but i don't know how much i'll ever be able to do with it, considering i'm so short and everything. but it is good to meet new people in the biz and all that. and yes, my goal is in acting, which i'm going about by doing the modeling, promotions, and our own movies.

[tearsfromastar]

that was an amazing entry. it must be hard for you to talk about this, but you have really made an impression. people can never judge other people, unless they have been in their shoes. you told a really amazing story, very emotional and descriptive, of your journey through your eating disorders. you are obviously a really strong person, and your story is inspirational. we've all been in a position where we wanted to be thinner, but eating disorders are the extreme; and anybody can go that way. i'm sorry i can't really put into words how amazing and touched i am by this entry. and i'm just some random person who clicked on your journal coz i saw your funny icons :)
♥ iris

[efface]

wow, thank you. i'm really glad that i writing all this out touched you in that way. thank you very much for your comment. :)