to clarify

[efface]

i hear so many people talk about eating disorders and people who have them, i just feel the need to talk about it from my point of view.

what do i hear? how ungrateful we are that we can afford food but choose not to eat it. how we should just "eat a hamburger". how we're all a product of society's vision of perfection

Comments

[coreyheartsyou]

it's so terrible, and having an ED sucks. i think what really triggered mine was my boyfriends cheating. it's completely nuts, now.

[ex_nada_o_ni545]

I think it's very brave with you to be open about your experience with your eating disorder. I'm 5'4" myself and quite happy at 120 lbs. I can't imagine what it would be like to have an eating disorder; I have always had a huge appetite and I keep busy enough to burn off the calories. It is true what most people say: the root of this disorder is psychological, and it is hard -- next to impossible, even -- for those who suffer from it to get back to healthy eating if they don't develop a healthy self-esteem in the first place.

[efface]

it has been really tough, but i've got a lot of support, and i just try not to get too wrapped up in society's views and superficial bullshit. it can be hard, especially in the line of work i'm in, but i think i'm doing well.

[akhousley]

Anything I want to say just seems to come off as preachy or offensive. I will just say that I am glad to have had you as a LJ friend for so long and I am proud of you in many ways.

[efface]

<3<3

[akhousley]

And you are beautiful too. Double bonus.

[sm0t]

This may seem calous, but I wish I actually started counting calories. I've always been extremely thin, borderline underweight. It's not because I didn't eat, but just because of a high metabolism. Now as I'm getting older, I'm still eating like a pig but I'm not burning off the calories like I used to. I just can't seem to make myself care enough to pay closer attention to what I'm putting in my body. My greatest fear is that one day I'll wake up fat and it will be too damn hard to shed the wieght.

Still, my view on eating disorders is that it is not my place to judge. Since I've never been there, I can never understand and who am I to critisize?

[starlit_morning]

Hi, I randomly came across your journal.
It's refreshing to hear someone write about actually recovering from an eating disorder. I have struggled with anorexia and bulimia for over four years and it's an enormous rollercoaster--sometimes I can be healthy for weeks...and then for no reason be back to old habits again.
I've never heard anyone talk about walking away from relationships with eating-disordered people. The more I think about it, the more difficult it sounds to do and the more sense it makes to do it.
Sorry this got a little long-I just wanted to tell you I was glad to read this entry.

[efface]

i'm glad you liked it. i wish you the best of luck with conquering your disease. remember, there's tons of support out here for you, if you want it. <3