i was cruising. life was good. i was happy. i felt free. the skies were clear. that was life post-disney. but it changed. the storm clouds came. the rain poured down. i lost my way. i couldn't see my path. i got confused. i hit some bumps in the road. but i kept going. i tried following other people. but they went a different way than i needed to. ( Read more... )

i saw that sign again on my way home yesterday. it's like someone screaming in my ears and slapping me in the face at the same time ( Read more... )

my brain is like a sink. constantly filling up with thoughts and then they drain back out again. no one's fault but my own. i left the water running again. only now the sink seems to be stopped up. or maybe the plug is in it. i think i put the plug in it on accident. now the sink is starting to overflow. new thoughts have pushed the old ones out. ( Read more... )

the need to write, to get the thoughts out, has returned with a vengence. but why? what sparked it? where did they come from? somewhere within. they must've just gone into hiding for awhile. but they never disappear. they never will. i'm fully aware of that now ( Read more... )

wow. i can't believe it's been almost 2 months since that last entry...and of course, it's very outdated. i suppose the rest of the summer is worth a quick recap ( Read more... )

welp, it's finally over!! my last day at speedway was yesterday and i've never rejoiced more over quitting a job. but things over the past couple of weeks have definitely taken a turn for the better. see i met this boy ( Read more... )

right, so remember how my mentor was trying to negotiate with my managers for days off? screw that. i have never been so insulted, disappointed, or disgusted with a situation in my entire life. i'll be lucky if i make it through the next two weeks. to make an extremely long story short, my manager basically went ballistic on me, called me selfish ( Read more... )

today at work my pants ripped in the crotch area and a bug flew into my eye so i couldn't see. i love this place.

before i go reminiscing about all that's happened over the past few weeks, i've gotta share my small world story from today. so i'm at grouper and this guy in a kentucky shirt and hat comes up with his wife and two kids. of course, i strike up a conversation ( Read more... )

i leave for lex in approximately 5 hours. i think this is the first time i've literally been so excited i can't sleep. i never thought i would be so excited to return to a place where i go to school. but since i've been down here i've realized that it's so much more than that. i finally know what it means to be homesick because i finally figured ( Read more... )