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I think the saddest thing I have to say that I've felt... moreso than before, is that I'm in love (because it can't work, I don't think) with someone who I'm 50% sure doesn't love me back. I don't want to be in love with him , In fact, I didn't even know it was possible to be in love with him.. but I know I am ( Read more... )

Wow. How long has it been since I posted on this thing.. Myspace and Facebook are total bastards. Haha. I've decided to retreat from them for awhile and get away from the comments and the "friends" and the obvious (I took them myself) pictures. How has life been? Pretty good. CSUN is where I now spend most of my scholarly activities. Nearly done ( Read more... )

All of my life, I've had people trying to push me in the direction they think I should go. As long as I can remember and even before that, people used to tell me "You're going to be gay." "Aren't you gay?" "You have really gay tendencies and mannerisms" I used to think they were just being mean, I used to cry about it. Sometimes I'd get so angry I ( Read more... )

I know I know. It's been quite sometime since I updated this thing. But I'm doing it. *Shrug ( Read more... )

Wow. How long has it been since I've posted an entry. I supposed I'm long overdue for some info updates. lol ( Read more... )

It's been a few weeks since P.J.'s funeral service and I have to say the family and I have moved on very slowly. I'd like to thank all of you who offered your support and condolensces, I definitely appreciate it. Things have been patched between my mother and I at least for the time being but that works well enough for me. School is going great. I ( Read more... )

A few days ago, I could tell you that I had 4 brothers. 3 older and one younger. As of this Morning (really for me, just this second), that's no longer the case. On Friday of last week, My 3rd oldest brother Phillip Joseph (who we called P.J) was trying to catch a bus to work, he tried to cross the street at a red light and was hit by a car trying ( Read more... )

I'm sure most, if not all of you, saw MTV's Little Talent Show this week. (If not they have all 3 parts of Ep 1 on YouTube now.) I deftinitely have to say, as bad as they made all of us look, I did laugh. It was definitely funny, moreso because I knew what had really happened and I could see where they (very badly) spliced everything together. It ( Read more... )

Things have gotten on the rough side for me lately. It's only been about a month and a half since I sat down with my mom and explained to her that I was bisexual... Oh wait.. Let me rewind ( Read more... )