I don't get why it's fucking ilelgal for me to be in a shitty mood. Everytime I decide that I want nothing to do with the world, people worry. WHY!? I told you what the fuck the problem was and ended with "I want to be left alone." Why then, does this send the message "Call me a bunch of times, clearly this is a call for help and I need everyone ( Read more... )

I LOVE WHEN LIVE JOURNAL DEEMS MY PRIVATE POSTS VIEWABLE BY THE MASSES.

Today was.. eh. It had it's good and bad. Spent the morning arguing with Amy yet again and it's not making me any happier, or her either, for that matter. Plenty to think about. I think we both took shots at one another today. Be it that they were grossly misinterperated on both sides or no, I do velieve blood was drawn on either side. Not a good ( Read more... )

Spent the whole night at the carlsons. Ate dinner with dad for Father's day and went straight over there with Fama, Izzo and the crew. We dragged scott out of the house and had ourselves an all night gamerthon. I've become so much better at smash, I feel like I should just stop bothering with a social life and dedicate my life to the way of the ( Read more... )

Papercuts sting like shit. Typing with one is worse. I'm fixated on the little stains of blood it leaves on the keys though, and how such a small cut produces such large amounts of pain and blood. I can feel it spiral down my finger. It's sticky and it gets cold easily. To think this is what's running through me to keep me alive. This thick crimson ( Read more... )

It's like a knife made from glass. It's so simple, so easy. It's functional and beautiful, but you can't appreciate it quite as much as you can while it's making it's way through your skin. Through your ribs. Severing your blood vessel and splitting fiber after fiber of muscle. Then it's aparent how amazing it is, when it touches your heart and ( Read more... )

Cultivate your hunger before you idealize ( Read more... )

It's depressing knowing that your life and everything you've accumulated for the past 20 odd years is capable of being stored into a couple boxes ( Read more... )

FAILED

Alright, so I need to wait until next year. Because I don't have any stability and I'm not having my grandma sign a loan that I could have her sign next year (Or even next semester) and have a better shot at this.

"Hold your fire. You don't have the shot."

Good morning It's still the same day

Before I even begin to write this post.
  If you're going to comment and tell me to shut up and blah blah and give me some snide ass chastising fucking comment cleverly disguised as advice, just stop reading now because I don't want a lesson from you, and I don't care what you have to say and really you can rot off and die in a shallow pool.
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