So I was doing a little spring cleaning.. and when I say a little, I mean not very much at all... But I was looking at my scrapbook stuff. My scrapbook's not finished, in fact it's barely started... but I was looking at all of the things I had saved to go in it. I was truly amazed. So many years... So many different friends.. places.. people I ( Read more... )

Someone I love dearly is gay, and that bothers me. And that bothers me that it bothers me. But it should, shouldn't it? I "dealt with" this a long time ago... I cried for him, cried myself to sleep... But the more I think about it, and the more I talk to the person that I once thought I might marry, the more depressed and sorrowful for him I ( Read more... )

I still feel old. I'm ready for bed by about 7. Normally I can't go to bed, until, say, 9:30 when I'm falling asleep in whatever I'm working on, but I'm ready as soon as I walk in the door ( Read more... )

I don't think we're moving to Haskell. Aaron just.. kind of lost interest in the whole thing. Which is fine.. I want him to do something that will make him happy. I just wish he'd try things until he finds what does that for him. And maybe that's what he's doing. Or maybe he's afraid he'll leave metrocare and have nowhere to go. I don't know ( Read more... )

It's been more than a while. What can I say? Life gets busy. I ended the semester with what I THOUGHT was a 4.0. Come to find out, I may have a 3.8. Yes, it's silly to worry about that, but I still do. I want to be the best of the best, I don't know why ( Read more... )

I've felt better lately. I haven't spent as much time focusing on God in the last few days, but in the last couple of weeks I have done more ( Read more... )

I haven't felt right lately. I cry easily and often. When my feelings get hurt, I dwell on it and get delusional about the motivation behind it before coming to terms with the fact that I totally got worked up over nothing. But that's just the thing. Then, there, at that point in time, it's a whole lot more than nothing, and I can't help but ( Read more... )

I'm in one of those awkward stages, as I've said a few times before, where I don't really fit. I don't have a group that I can totally connect with. This is OK, because there've been many times like that in my life, and I generally float from one group to another anyway. But the etiology of it all does provoke a lot of thought ( Read more... )

So it's been awhile. Life's been crazy. My little brother has been diagnosed with Hypertrophic Cardiomyopathy.. and while that's not a terminal illness, it is chronic. And he's SIXTEEN. He's been sleeping in the living room every night because he either can't sleep laying down or isn't supposed to. He's on medicine, but he still doesn't feel ( Read more... )

I miss ACU. I went to eat with Natalie last night (and paid 9.47 for a piece of pizza, a chili dog, and some brown salad) at the Bean, and I saw many of my friends from junior scholars or from class.. even one from church back home ( Read more... )