so i've been thinking for sometime... how could.. why did... how am i supposed to.... ahhhhhh ( Read more... )

and i feel SO much better! hahaha

depression is a disease and im not giving in. UNIVERSAL on saturday! who's in?!... lol like i have a lot of friends added to this lj anyways, haha... wow

i'll be happy n matter what. eat it.

or at least that's what lj says ( Read more... )

i need a better way to vent.

met·a·mor·pho·sis (mĕt'ə-môr'fə-sĭs)
n., pl. -ses (-sēz').

1. A transformation, as by magic or sorcery.
2. A marked change in appearance, character, condition, or function.
3. Biology. A change in the form and often habits of an animal during normal development after the embryonic stage. Metamorphosis includes, in insects, the transformation of a maggot ( Read more... )

For all of my short comings and wrong doings, I pray for Your forgiveness. For every time I heard Your call, and turned my back, I thank You for Your undying mercy. For all You've done for me, I lift my voice and I'll sing to You until my days are up. For every breath, I know, is from You. Forever, be on the foreground of my mind. Let me not fall ( Read more... )

i've learned that when life seems up, hold on tight and get ready for the shit to hit.. because it will, and it does, and it did. i keep telling myself it'll be okay, and then i open my eyes and fall back down to the rock i was lifeless on 5 minutes before. i just want to scream, but that doesnt solve anything. nothing solves anything. only one ( Read more... )

the weight changes, priorities shift, people move, or they die, or they change into someone you can't relate to anymore, people's hearts break, depression runs some, fear steers others, pride drives the successful mad, music moves those who have explored somewhat of their innermost feelings, some try to help people, others try to hurt... most of ( Read more... )

my life is a humbling experience. when it comes to tough times i have been strong. it's when the little things creep in (that shouldn't matter at alllll) i fail miserably. i realize my life is not my own, so when you really get down to it.. it shouldn't even matter how i feel about anything, but how Christ in me feels. sadly, that has not been the ( Read more... )

if this room were sealed shut
i would drown.