One day I'm sure that you will see ( Read more... )

so i tried to write a lullaby to sing to you on valentine's day but i couldn't find the right words to say just how i feel so instead you'll have to deal with hearing a different song that's nothing like the one i had in mind. so this is a song about a song i couldn't write and i stayed up for three nights trying to think of the right words. but ( Read more... )

should've kept my mouth shut...i'm so predictable...i think this could be good though...this time it really is different...i didn't realize that he babied me that much until he stopped...so it's better...i hate being babied...i don't like for people to let me feel sorry for myself...just slap me...but not hard...i don't know if i should just leave ( Read more... )

i'm going to see keith and his new place today...i'm nervous...

i hate not being able to use myspace at school... hopefully the internet will work at the house... happy belated halloween everyone...and happy late birthday to my mother...he didn't give her any presents...she cried... males are retarded...

goal: to be content with being single.

p.o.'d

and i'm the enemy. yes, i'm to blame for all this. numb the pain in me. and take me to a place inside my head. don't fade away when i need you most. i'm not strong enough to make it on my own.

bleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i'm beginning to realize that i've spent more than half of my life trying to numb myself to keep from feeling any pain...but now i'm numb to happiness too...i stared blankly at a street light for twenty minutes straight...i felt nothing...i cried for five hours...and then it was all gone...i was left with no tears, no emotion...just numb...but ( Read more... )

i finally have a day off...after six consecutive days of working, i'm finally off...crap...what am i going to do?? what is there to do on a thursday???? well, i know for sure that when i leave school i'm going to get some fricken food because i'm starving like a little ethiopian kid...and after class i have to bring allie to work...hopefully this ( Read more... )

I've been feeling very alone lately...It's nothing new, but it's getting old. I still miss him, and it hurts. It seems like he's everywhere. I don't want to be emotionally attached any longer...which is ironic, because I usually beg for the opposite....but I don't know how long I'll continue waiting until I realize that I am nothing to him. I'm ( Read more... )