when i feel self destructive i eat
then i get fat
then i feel self destructive because i am fat
then i eat more

shit

so, i think too much. and i make myself paranoid.

i'm really tired. its 6:34am and i'm supposed to choose my courses for next semester at 9. couldn't sleep at midnight, and if i had slept when i was tired, i would never wake up in time for classes... you know how the easy classes fill up in seconds.

ugh so tired.

A person only has about 4 seconds to be beautiful and young before starting to wonder where all their beauty went.

And I start wondering where mine has gone.

so i never took pictures of my apartment... so i took some pictures, before and after cleaning.

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i'm really not as morbid as i seem to be on livejournal...

why can't i find someone that loves me as is.

i am giving myself a foot massage and it hurts.

my life is a rollercoaster.

lmao
i look like a fat lesbian in this picture.


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 i can't fucking quit smoking.
i just bought 2 packs.