Today was another one of those landmarks in life. You know... that point in time where you say "Holy hell... What am I doing?!"
My emotions got the best of me for the first time in a long time and, though I chock up another regret, I have a better perspective, now. Again.
I fucking needed it.
I re-learned humility and regained a lot of control. Though ( Read more... )

It seems that no matter how much storm I weather, I'm still left to weave in the dark ( Read more... )

Well, I wrote out an entry and if  you saw it... forget it.

I've decided that I am NOT going to allow myself to be depressed. Shit sucks. Oh well. Might as well be happy while it sucks.

Also, I'm not going to allow myself to be cryptic, right now. Plain words do the same job. (Though there are some things I can't plainly say, for other people's sake ( Read more... )

It's been forever. Or more.

I can't sleep, still. Whenever I do, I feel a surge of energy. Never really positive energy, though.

Dreams still haunt  me... And though I have a hard time getting to my dream world, I stay there for longer than I'd like to.

Life continues to toll, though. And I continue to feel as if I got screwed.

Fears have become reality and I still can't fucking say what I want to say.

I feel as if I'm spinning.

So I've decided that I'm going to start updating this as regularly as I do my deviantArt journal. I'll probably forget and then update in spurts, but then again, maybe not. We'll see.

This layout is way too... I guess inferior is the only word for it. I believe Livejournal is going to instigate me learning HTML.

As for now, it's better than all the cute ones...

This is just so I can befriend people that I know Via LJ. I have a REAL journal that I actually pay attention to on my deviantart. Or... http://replicardent.deviantart.com/

Enjoy?