i rarely cry over guys but lately thats changed.
i miss him so much.
i can't believe he left.
i dont regret anything.

You haven't written to me in a week I'm wondering why that is ( Read more... )

and the plot thickens...

all the slander and double speak were only foolish attempts to show you did not mean...

and as the summers ending,
the cold air will rush your hard heart away.
you were so condescending,
as the alcohol drained the days.

i've ne ver in my life been so hurt by someones words before in my whole life. this ones gonna take awhile for me to recover from.

kay its done. it has to be. what alex said to me made so much sense: he doesn't mean it but he wants to mean it. that alone should be incentive enough to walk away. its just so godamn hard...

so im starting to get used to living in the fall. i realized in high school it was all structured and routine yet here everything changes day to day, not just the classes but with what i do at night. i've been going out way too much and its not the going out thats affecting me its all the money i have to spend doing it. i literally am on the ( Read more... )

being home isn't as weird as i thought it would be. nothings really changed and i still feel really close to my friends which is so relieving. im so apprehensive about fall though. even though im so glad i went up for summer, i feel like i have to start all over again. theres just going to be so many more people and im really fuckin nervous about ( Read more... )

if you don't like people you don't get hurt. i need to instill that theory back in my life because it got lost somewhere along the way and now everythings fucked up.

 i fucking told myself not to get attatched to anyone. now everything is just utterly confusing...