strange and rather unusual mood

[el_guero]

I'm not quite sure what I'm feeling at the moment. Today was a typical day though aside from one thing. Well seeing as how I'm getting sick again with my mystery illness,I've been growing pale. Well I've taken matters into my own hands,and dumped down some money to start going to a tanning salon. I feel more comfortable with myself when I'm darker

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[lotusgirl]

I still say you don't have enough beaner in you to look the part. The paleness is just your strong German blood coming through. You know....it's not a bad thing to be proud of being German along with being beaner. When you only embrace the beaner in you, you push aside 50% of what you actually are.

[el_guero]

I don't push the other aside. Plus,I've grown up around mexicans,not germans. That will give me a tendecy to lean to that side I guess.

You and I both know I have the bone and facial structure. I'm just so damn pale. I gess I still struggle with my heritage. Blame the family for that one =/ Although I once again prefer "human" over mexican,or german,or whatever else you can label me as. It's something to be ifinitely proud of.

[lotusgirl]

I see that living with a German for 6 and a half months did nothing to show you that being a german is wayyyyyy better than a beaner....but I think that only cause that is what I am. Yeah, it's nice to be human. But, it's also nice to get in touch with your heritage. If we forget from where we have come from...we are doomed to never really understand who we are.

[el_guero]

I'd call that a semi-recist remark,but I know that's just your way with words. Racism unintended. I may have grown up in the most racially diverse state in the union,but again..I still grew up with mostly hispanic people. Or really,I guess that's just who I made the most friends with.

With the mexican side,I get to be prud o a heritage I'm familiar with. With the German side,I know there's great beer involved. lol....although I do love my Corona....tecate...sometimes modelo....but heineken,grolsch,beck's,and st. pauli girl are pretty great. I guess I distinguish my heritages by their beers lol.