as a parting missive ( Read more... )

this journal is officially out of commission. its contents have been/will be (depending on when you are reading this entry) privated away at the pleasure of its owner.

i just have to say...

these last two weeks have been terrible, painful, awful... and it's all been a concoction of my own mind.

i have nice dreams that end up as nothing at all.

i'm a weiner.

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eww. i hate myself.

good night.

i keep singing 'love fool' over and over. what does this mean? perhaps i just like catchy melodies, or am channeling the unfulfilled desires of other people for my bodacious bod? maybe i'm the one who would rather be fooled than completely alone...

*sigh*

i think i'm just lonely.

mental note: baby sister likes 'ice cream man,' 'brown-eyed girl,' 'it's oh so quiet.'

p.s. -these are the times that make me eager to have children one of these days.

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i haven't cried in a month. i thought tori amos would do it for me. it's just not coming.

i won't be standing for this much longer. maybe i'll go cut onions, slam my fingers in a door, subject myself to bleedingly blunt assholes and dead bodies.

i miss my mother.