i woke up and wasnt tired ( Read more... )

my mind is torturing me. i cant sleep. its like the rheels of a movie projector spinning faster and faster, complete vivid thooughts then all of a sudden the film slips off track and i slip out of it. i loose touch with all reality and loose myself in this whirlpools of outlandish ideas. the same thing keeps repeating throughout it all. i cant give ( Read more... )

never understand me because i like too many things and get all confused and hung up running around from one falling star to another til i drop. this is the night, what it does to you. i had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion. jack kerouac ( Read more... )

things have been going so great that i hadnt need to write in this. but now im pisssed at myself for not following through with what i wanted to do. i just want to live life, happy, sad whatever, and to be excited aobut it. but i let negative thoughts and tears stop me from doing that. its only after i get so upset that i realize that im not doing ( Read more... )

ive spent so much time trying not to be like everyone else that ive denied parts of myself. with that being said, no more insecurities, no more lacking confidence, this is who i am NOW and if you dont like it i dont care. im really pissed off taht ive been so down for so long that im actually taking action, in other words im actually growing up ( Read more... )

mistakes are almost of a sacred nature. never try to correct them. salvador dali.

its been a while since i was really excited just about life, about whats going to happen next and what i want to do. i had an epiphany, more like a revelation, something that use to happen a lot to change my view of things in high school, last week when i went to see my cousin in dc. she has a kick ass apartment by the way (as small as it may be). ( Read more... )

got a new paycheck, some new clothes, some new movies ( Read more... )

you'll be surprised how little i knew. even up to yesterday.

but no matter; the road is life.

jack kerouac

ive decided that ive been down and depressed long enough. ive taken things for granted and bitched and complained about nothing. i have it good, and i plan for it to get a lot better. ive always been optimistic until the fallout of all my friends and the downfall of my expectations of meeting new ones. well i say fuck it. if no one wants to make ( Read more... )