hmmm so claire danes said it but i think she was thinking she was me when she did....

"I have a huge, active imagination, I think I'm really scared of being alone; because if I'm left to my own devices, I'll just turn into a madwoman."

so i come home and not even two days later i feel like everyone is trying to open up old wounds and make me feel insecure and weird and awkward. and as i was telling laura, i dont like awkward, ive had my share of awkward. i am awkward so i dont need the world to be it. gooooood god. if there is one. i like change and i like to have new things and ( Read more... )

my aspirations when i left high school to begin college were something im starting to remember. i moved on, I LEANED AHEAD, and i let all of that go down the crapper. im letting the same people get to me, im not changing, well some, but not in the direction i want to, instead of moving ahead im retreating to high school days, the days ive longed so ( Read more... )

things dont change overnight. but it helps when i ask whats wrong with me and a friend i hardly talk to anymore tells me that nothing, you're awesome. or when i finally get out what i need to say. but even so. things dont change overnight as much as i want to believe they do.

i think i think too much and that what i just wrote will be interpreted as less significant than it is to me

i dont think i like expressing myself through words. thats most likely why i dont and why i am inarticulate. so basically i like to keep my thoughts to myself, and what i discover in my head. or through other means. actions, i like those ( Read more... )

why do the most rediculously bad things happen to the best people? i really dont get it. and then the bad ones, or the not as good ones get whatever they want. bahhhhh. im so sorry to hear what happened jim if you are reading this. you dont deserve that, no one does. but you are one of those best people.

grrrr....whatever happened to kharma?

im happy. today was a good day. got to sleep in. rearrange my room, kinda. and be lazy. and tomorrow, well ive got a lot of work to do. oh well ( Read more... )

its almost time for halloween!! my most favorite time of the year. yay. i still am not sure what im going to be, but if you see me im sure it will be something good. ive got so many ideas. we are going to the gianormous halloween store tonight ( Read more... )

i bitch a lot. im not that sad about life. im happy, im really happy, like aviva, im happy 96% of the time.

its just i dont write when im happy cos im too busy being happy, i dont need to vent.

jsut had to get that off my chest.