requiem for innocence

[drawingintheair]

requiem for innocence
eunhae
nc-17
growing up doesn't mean putting out your own fires. it means watching them burn until the smoke dies out
7313 words

Comments

[changdictator]

o
god

I don't even want to live anymore. aly. aly. oh my god what have you done, this was just so beautiful sobs and this was just perfect, perfect and so brilliant and gentle and pretty and ugh I just. aly can I just. ugh I'm drowning in my own feelings and Jesus, this was really just. Aiyaaahhh.

[drawingintheair]

Now your "why do you exist" tweet makes sense ;)
I'm so happy you liked this, coming from you I consider it a huge compliment.

[changdictator]

I break down in creys aly v__v my "why do you exist" tweet applies for every occasion when it comes to drawingintheair, ok. ok. so now that we have that settled, I think I forgot to mention HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE THE CIGARETTE IN THIS FIC. ugh I have a gross weakness for cigarette and a grosser weakness for eunhae (vers. drawingintheair) so this. was. just. everything. thank you.

also the only thing that comes from me is incessant, fangirly wordvomit (tho lately I've been trying to tuck all my feels under and appear more normal around you AHEM) so you ought to consider an umbrella as well? v__v

[drawingintheair]

I have this obsession with smoking in fiction. It is such a vital important part of both the fic and Donghae's characterization and their relationship here and I have so many thoughts and feelings on why the idea of smoking fits this image I have of him the way it does I could go on and on forever.

No don't hide your feelings D: feelings make the world go round and the writer in me basically lives off feelings and eunhae feelings and just. Feelings. But um /goes out to get an umbrella

[kikiiovesmusic]

I have fallen in love and I have no regrets with it'd wonderful one-sidedness lol

Thank you for writing this! It was simply lovely and thoroughly wonderful to read ^-^

I just love how your writing makes me feel lost in the words~ <3

Plus it was ecstatic to wake up to lol x] Thank you for writing this! :D <333

[drawingintheair]

Thank you so much for reading. I'm glad you liked it :)

[misael19191919]

You actually wrote eunhae and--

[misael19191919]

OKAY SO. Lo leí, (lo hice ayer en la noche) y me dejaste sajkdhjkasdhkjasdhjka.

Este fic que escribiste es tan liviano, tiene angst desde la mitad pero al final no lo tiene a la vez. Disfrute toda la leída ♥. Es como si... se amaran pero no supieran que hacer con ese tipo de información, y tan solo siguen con su vida como debería ser, pero a la vez no pueden soltar 'eso' que tiene entre los dos cuando se hacen 'grandes y ;A; NO SÉ QUE MÁS DECIRTE, me has dejado sin palabras en mi propio idioma, ¿puedes cree eso? lol

Una de las cosas que más amo en los fics de eunhae es imaginármelos como trainers. No lo sé, se siente tan sexy e inocente a la vez. No tengo la culpa que además el sudor sea sexy en ellos, EHEM. Me gusta tu manera de describirlos, y tu ingles es tan sobresaliente que me avergüenzo del mio, oh my gosh.

/GIVES LOVE TO YOUR FIC ALY. LOOOOOOOOVE, LOTS OF LOVEEEE.

Alissa.

[drawingintheair]

Omg Alissa. Dying at your gifs and just what.

Es como si... se amaran pero no supieran que hacer con ese tipo de información, y tan solo siguen con su vida como debería ser

Es exactamente lo que yo quería convocar en la relación de ellos aquí. Yo me quedo sin palabras en mis dos idiomas natales así que no te lo tengo en cuenta!

A mi también me gusta mucho este periodo. Imaginarmelos como dos jóvenes trabajando para alcanzar sus sueños y todo lo que conlleva. Tanto para explorar y experimentar con.

/gives lots of love back

[apieceofsilver]

I love this for how you portrayed their equally strong need for each other although it may seem that Donghae is more needy, I think Hyukjae is just better at keeping his in check. But it's there. Like how you put it simply and perfectly, "they are equals". Urgh I love that because I think they are like that. And the ending is not really an end, like they're ending just the childish dependency on each other and maybe they're just realizing it's more than just childish dependency. hehe. I mean, that's just how it came out to me but of course there's a big chance that I could be wrong, hehe... But in any case, I'm so happy you're back and writing again. Like this: ^_______________________________________________________________________________^

[drawingintheair]

Donghae has this image of being the "needy emotional weak" one and while I don't depute that (tho I don't agree it with the severity some fans/fic-writers do) I think Hyukjae can be just the same. Just as you said, he keeps it in check, controls and conceals it better. It's the sort of thing you catch it between the lines or don't. You aren't wrong at all! That is exactly what the final scene is and I'm glad someone caught on that. Thank you so much for reading and commenting. I'm glad you liked it :)

[apieceofsilver]

Oh, yey! I got it right. ^^
Oh, and I think I also have a thing for Donghae smoking. I also wrote a fic once that had Donghae smoking in it because I want others to appreciate him for him. He's not perfect. Neither is Hyukjae. They are people. With certain aspects of their lives they may not be completely proud of, but what's wrong with that, right? Anyway.... Hehe... You've been gone quite long too. Were you busy with school too?

[ovniee]

this. was one of the best fic I EVER read. you're very very talented. this is beautiful...

[drawingintheair]

Thank you!