I thought this would be different. Everything's the same...except I never knew what it felt like to rather have never existed than be a factor someone's sadness. Maybe it's my lack of ability to deal with feeling guilty or maybe I've just never loved a person so much that their unhappiness made me miserable. I don't know.

My parents told me the other day that they were the only people in the world that truely want what's best for me and would go out of their way to get it. I kind of brushed it off then but I've been thinking and it's almost true. Not completely, but almost ( Read more... )

I wanna kill everyone. everyone sucks. dumb kids. not funny.

I'm excited for the rest of my life and doing something for the first time in a long time. I've been trying to convince myself that I was doing what I wanna do. I think it's interesting and fun and cool and all and I like it but I have no passion to sit and record musicians when I rather just be the one playing and being recorded. I don't want to ( Read more... )

It's like everyone's always taking the easy way out and I get left behind ( Read more... )

I feel incredibly detached from every single person in the entire world except myself right now. My time is slower or faster, I can't tell. My air is darker and their is a thick layer of gray and white fuzzies between my eyes and the ceiling. Nothing feels like home...I have a bed in NJ and one in Brooklyn. Some people have an old sofa cushion ( Read more... )

My brother is driving up to Boston today to give his girlfriend a gold necklace. It's so sweet. I've never gotten jewelry. Maybe because my mom is a jeweler or maybe because I dont wear much. Who knows. Maybe I should be more of a girl so that I can get girly presents... because as lame as they are the traditional thought is nice sometimes. ( Read more... )

Two types of people in the world...

Ones who hold doors and ones who don't.

This simple action can really say a lot about a person. It's been on my mind lately.

My jacket smells wierd.

The rest of this month and the next are probably going to be really stressful. Last semester I ended up doing really well even though I was out all the time and didn't give as much time to my classes as I should have. This semester I'm making a real effort to make full use of my studio time and now that I know you can just sign anyone into an NYU ( Read more... )

-Chairs without armrests ( Read more... )