I totally forgot this existed ( Read more... )

Sometimes I forget that for every lucky family there is at least one that is not lucky.

I love Aaron. So fucking much, I could honestly gush all day about him. I want babies and marriage, and a house and all the crap with him. I mean i can see it's so sharp, vividly in my minds eye, it takes so little effort. I mean seriously, I daydream about this shit. ALL. THE. FUCKING. TIME. I mean it's really embarassing how much I love this man ( Read more... )

I've been diagnosed with Chronic Adjustment Disorder. And strangely enough, I've never felt more free.

I don't know if I am strong enough to endure this. He keeps telling me that all that matters is the end of the 'story'. That's easy enough for him. For him, he gets a happy ending either way. He tells me that a chance is better than nothing.

I deserve better than this. If only I could let him go.

I feel like someone took a baseball bat to both my knees and then is expecting me to walk.

My heart hurts.

Don't get me wrong, I love Odin. But there are days where I miss Max so goddamn bad.

Let he who is without sin cast the first stone.

Parents are heading to Des Moines again this year. Can't go because I have to work XP I got stuck babysitting the dog again.