It poured rain as I drove home from work. It rained every Tuesday last summer. This day there was a rainbow to remind me of the beautiful things in life. It gave a small amount of comfort as I turned on my phone to find the announcement and the photo. Which brought back the familiar flood of tears and heartbreak. That morning I met my boss at ( Read more... )

It's so much easier for us to see the value in others than it is for us to see the amazingness in ourselves ( Read more... )

I think I’m ready to walk away ( Read more... )

Last night my mom was in my dream. I was with her and she was driving and the car went off a cliff into the water and there we were trying to escape from the mess, and the water was pouring in and we were trapped and I was certain we were going to drown. Yet somehow we made it out alive. Yes dreamworld is where I write the script, it's a place ( Read more... )

I tell myself the reason she can't bring herself to answer my letter or any of my letters in the past few years is because she is at a loss for words she can't write the things that she has said or would say if we were speaking when she puts that on paper it's too hurtful, too ridiculous, not the kind of things a mom would say ( Read more... )

I figured all you stalkers needed an update.

I live in Maine.
It's a snow day.
It's been six months since I've spoken to my mom.
I'm happy.
My three cats are happy because I get to stay home today.
Addie cat is scared of crinkly snow pants and pumpkins.
She likes butterflies, I guess spring is her favorite season.

And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight in the bud became greater than the risk it took to blossom -Anais Nin

I feel like a GPS at times. Constantly changing the direction and intent ( Read more... )

I don't want to be angry anymore, but I still am.

REALLY? Sure I have my list of sins, but don't forget that you do too ( Read more... )